Should I get adopted?

Im 13 years old, I hate being in my family, I lived with my grandparents since 5th grade summer & Im in 8th grade now, My mom she was in Mexico with her boyfriend having the time of her life I guess because she was on the run for something stupid & decided not to serve her 30 days & 4 yr probahtion because she wnted to be w/ her bf in mexico, now shes back & srveing her time well court & stuff & she got her stuff done not all her warrnats & stuff & she can't drive & she puts on her facebook can't wait to go to mexico to my man, & she doens't eve think about me & my 16 yr old brother & she does drugs like pills & I hate depending on my family do stuff for me, they don't buy me my stuff I need or anything & I need rides to my appts. for orthodonist no ride. My dad he just came back in my life acts like he knows me & acts like he knows me & Im just a bad child & Im not ! & He abused my mom when they were together . &badly & that other stuff but he doesn't know I know that & I lived with my gma on my moms side for awhile but at the school I went to by the house I got bullied so much & it hurt me so bad so for 8th grade I lived with my dads parents go to Ba schools where I went to for 1-5th grade whitch is cool but there werid, rude, & Musslim, they don't buy m or pay for my stuff & they ugh & alot of ppl in my family is just ugh. I want to be adopted into a new family, people who care, don't do drugs, & Just all that stuff. Is this just stupid stuff for me to be adopted, Is it just a little thing? Should I get adopted? What should I do? Please help? Im really tired of this. /: I put on a fake smile EVERYDAY, All my friends think Im so happy & Funny, but Im really not. /: I hope someone helps me. (: Thanks for listening if you read this. I hope you help. !