I don't really know what to do, and I only want there to be one option...?

Think about what you COULD do, you COULD be happy, life COULD be better, you COULD have the ideal life, but you have to WANT to, you're right it's not going to get better if you don't let it, if you don't care, you have to express your emotions BEFORE it gets this bad, you're building it up and it has to get out someway, but better happy than sad, remember "do not destroy yourself by any means because if you live you can still have good fortune but all dead are dead alike" Hope I Helped" E-mail me if you want